Gratitude affirmations, growth tests, and last-minute travel
Zoë Hart before reaching her goal of running 4.5 miles without stopping.
Today was a test on whether I can be the person I imagine myself being. I am someone who treats others as I want to be treated. I am someone who doesn’t worry about the cost of things since God is my supply. I am someone who navigates her plans to support those who she loves.
Well, I did it. But it still wasn’t easy. I had to remind myself of my ideas to make the decisions that I needed to make.
When I went to sleep the night before, the audiobook I listened to stated, “anyone who leaves you has decided that they aren’t good enough for you.” While this statement isn't novel, it reminded me there are several ways to look at every situation.
I, of course, was thinking about the last person I loved. Neither of us was perfect. But he was so easy for me to love. I couldn’t slow it down if I tried. I liked that about us. I had complete faith that we were building something great. But the reality is that I have to thank him for putting me into this space where I am becoming God’s Trophy Wife. I feel that all of this had to happen for me to be here at this place in time. The audiobook also said paying too much attention to the past puts your future dreams on hold. My mind and my. heart finally agreed that night that it was ready for me to let go and have the energy to inspire someone to state their interest in me. So, I told my subconscious OK. I was open to this.
So, all of these thoughts impacted my dreams. I woke up feeling happy, accessible, and powerful. I told myself the day would be easy, which started that way. I quickly crushed my fitness goals for the day, wrote detailed entries in my journal, and was straightforward with myself.
When it was time to start my work block, my phone started getting notifications, mostly about my upcoming trip to NYC. Luckily, I could see many friends during my one-day adventure there. In addition, my friend told me that there was a change of plans for her Bermuda trip that she wasn’t happy about. I asked her what she needed me to do, and she said she’d let me know. I know that I want company whenever I say that phrase to someone. So, as I was thinking about this, my mother called to tell me that she needed gratitude and breathing techniques immediately. So I took her on a visioning experience through Balboa Park in San Diego, led her through square breathing, and alternated back and forth between 10 items of gratitude. Once my mother was satisfied, I decided that I needed to pray about the rest.
I am such a planner of everything. Next week I was supposed to go hard with these consultations, sign up for a 5k, make a day trip to Boston, and pour into a new friendship. Throwing another trip in the mix would require me to reconfigure my life. So, I figured I needed to get in the water to figure it out. Initially, it was raining, so I had to wait for the drizzle to subside. I made a green smoothie and cleaned it for 13 minutes until the rain stopped. Then I got in, put on some music, and looked within for the right thing to do.
There were no flights from ATL to BDM on Sunday, so that was out. There was a flight on Monday, but going to an island for 48 hours doesn’t seem like the best idea.. So, eventually, I decided to check to see options from JFK. Somehow, there was a direct flight available from JFK on Sunday that would only cost me $6 (and 35k miles). It was meant to be. Less than 10 minutes later, my main cabin seat was upgraded to first class. I took that as a sign that I was meant to go to Bermuda.
The $6 ticket that became first class. This was my sign to figure out the rest of my trip to Bermuda.
Miracles and Wonders
I received responses from 10 individuals about acquiring EnrichHER
I booked a last-minute ticket to Bermuda for cheap
I felt released from my love attachment
I confirmed a connection with my new friend, who I met in Lisbon the following day
The rest of the day I spent finishing work tasks, preparing for my two trips, and checking in on loved ones. I always dreamed about having opportunities like this, friendships like this, and being supportive in this way. Today was a good day.