Letting Go
Over the past year, I’ve been seeking direction. I am so well accomplished because I typically live a life guided by a plan and strong intuition. But, ever since I felt a significant shift in my life in the fall of 2021, I’ve felt uncertain. I needed to disrupt this feeling to align with my path. I detail exactly why I felt that now was the right time to do the surrender experiment in my post, “Deciding to surrender. “ My goal in putting this documentation together is to capture my growth, opportunities, and experience when I don’t try to control everything. I hope that it works :)
As a social introvert, I learned 20 years ago that I could satisfy my need for socializing, good food, and being drenched in love if I hosted events in my house. I was in control of the things that mattered, and I felt joy inside and out every time.
My head was swirling, reprioritizing my list of important things time and time again. I had to ensure I optimized my fitness, packed in a carry-on for two climates, and remained calm to preserve my energy. I was determined to be good company all day.
Today was a first for me. While I traveled for work on the first plane out and the last plane home for years for EnrichHER and before as a consultant, I had never traveled like this for fun on a Saturday. Today was the Day.
Eleven hours of sleep listening to the sound of ocean waves crashing outside your window is the perfect way to blend into island life. After waking up, we went to the hotel gym for a quick workout. The run and weight-lifting routine seemed so easy. This day started off feeling just right.
My restlessness resumed the night before my 4 am wake-up time. I couldn’t get my head around optimizing my life. Before I got into rim sleep, it was time to prepare for my Boston excursion.
Getting Started
Starting anything new always has growing pains, at least for me. I’ve been the way I am for as long as I can remember. So allowing myself to go with the flow seemed in contrast to my structured approach to life, The first week of this experiment felt like a battle. Yet, I decided to stick to it. I had read many books and watched many videos about the transformative nature of completing this experiment. Plus, there are tons of non-linear people who are just or even more successful as us logical planners. At any rate, I knew that I was savage when it came to execution, and I was going to execute this trial run to the best of my ability.
They say that periods of solitude are necessary for growth. I have been leaning into my solitude to learn how to be my best friend, to be the source of the energy that I expect, and how to navigate through the expectations and opinions of others.
Today I started similar to Day 1, but with a bit more sleep. I decided not to stick to my optimal 5 am wakeup time and let my body tell me when I had enough sleep so that I could start my routine then. I had a bit of flexibility today as my meetings were all grouped at the end of the day.
Sometimes bliss is having a completely spontaneous day with an empty to-do list. This is how I decided to end the year. Luckily I was surrounded by the right amount of love. Story told by Roshawnna Novellus.
I made it to the first day of the year. Bliss on 10. Happiness on 10. Love on 10
Today was a battle between 4 sides of me. We were only a few days into the surrendering game, so it was easy to forget how it felt. I fully enjoyed the soft life for at least the last six months so I could go back there with a snap of a finger. The 16-hour workday spanned 30 years of my life, and I finally kicked the habit in 2020. And he was all over my subconscious, an energy that was there even when he wasn’t in active focus.
I woke up keen on not repeating the contrast of the day before. I asked myself,why feel anxious when you can feel relaxed? The choice was easy, and I decided to let go and start the Surrender Experiment over. This was my life, and it was my time to live it.
An opulent adventure of love in Tulum
My invitation to Tulum happened on Day 2 of this experiment. At this time, I was both nervous and scared to go so far outside my planning mode to venture on a last-minute international adventure. But I must say that going on this venture changed me in more ways than one and gave me the confidence of knowing without a doubt that this experiment was the right path.
I was today years old when I became a gift for a friend’s love. I always imagined showing up as a gift on a beach getaway, but it hit a little different to play supporting character energy during a grand illustration of love. I was here for it!!!
It was a complete day of bliss with the absence of fear, doubt, or any barriers to any desire. This day showed me how we each choose the experiences that we want.
I awoke to the dream and no power. I figured it was a fluke and that it would resolve shortly. I woke up again an hour later to the sound of rustling. I ended up saving two of my group members who were stuck in their rooms. The house was hot, dark, and there were hours between now and the sunrise.
I was so grateful that there was nothing on our itinerary for today. All I wanted to do was to curl up with my laptop on the couch and work. I was so grounded and refreshed that I knew the work session would yield creative results.
Today I decided to wake up and write in my journal outside next to our heated pool. I’m not sure why this never crossed my mind before this moment. The warm weather, the sound of the waterfalls, and the beauty of the earth at sunrise were more than anyone could ask for.
Staying in paradise mentally while in the comfort of home
I remember when I was 25, and someone told me that vacation needs to be at least as nice as your home, and your home should feel like a vacation. It took some time for me to grow into this statement, but I know I’ve been living this life as of late. I love my house and am always grateful to have the opportunity to leverage my environment as I flow through the phases of life. This week was the first full work week of the year, and I had to jump in to seize the day while being this new version of myself.
I woke up so proud of myself. Typically when I’m away from home or off my routine, I have 4intense anxiety. For most of my life, I felt like accomplishing tasks was the only use of time. Luckily, I’ve worked through that feeling and embraced this letting go concept even more. I woke up feeling a bit tired but more at ease than normal.
At 3 a.m. yesterday I knew I had food poisoning. By 6 a.m., I was calling my mommy to ask what to do. She told me that she hid some Pepto in my house, lol.
I’m not sure about you, but when I feel better, I am extra hype. I want to do everything all at once. I have to make myself calm down and relax to ease into the day. So, while I usually spend the first hour of the day listening to affirmations, knew that I was just tossing and turning and not paying attention to the message.
Me: Do you want to go on an adventure for a day with me?
He: What are you thinking?
Me: You have to say yes or no before I focus on any details.
He: Well, then, yes
Today I woke up energized and extremely passionate. It may be because my health was back at 100%, it was the Founders Day of Delta Sigma Theta, Inc., or I felt so loved. Regardless, I knew for a fact that this day was mine.
The first 30 minutes of hiking in 32F weather makes you question your life choices. But after you start warming up, you remember that a period of discomfort often comes right before happiness, upgrades, and getting the things you want out of life. So once that warmth hits you, you feel like you are all power and can and will achieve anything.
As a social introvert, I learned 20 years ago that I could satisfy my need for socializing, good food, and being drenched in love if I hosted events in my house. I was in control of the things that mattered, and I felt joy inside and out every time.
Today felt like a doover from last Monday. The only difference was that I needed to attack the day with the deep understanding that I could and would do everything I required.
I hit the snooze button eight times before getting out of bed at 6:40 am. My sleep was trying to take over my schedule with great force, and it succeeded for a while.
Today was a test on whether I can be the person I imagine myself being. I am someone who treats others as I want to be treated. I am someone who doesn’t worry about the cost of things since God is my supply. I am someone who navigates her plans to support those who she loves.
My head was swirling, reprioritizing my list of important things time and time again. I had to ensure I optimized my fitness, packed in a carry-on for two climates, and remained calm to preserve my energy. I was determined to be good company all day.
Luxury travel provided by Bermuda Tourism Board
Aniesia is a luxury editorial writer and often gets opportunities to write content for magazines focused on destinations worldwide. I have always wanted to know how to get paid to travel to 5-star resorts, and I found out after arriving in Bermuda that my friend does this. While I don’t have a journalism background, I think that getting others to support you while you’re sharing your experience is a dream come true. This trip taught me to look at your ‘Many acres of diamonds’ more closely as you mind know someone in arms reach of your ideal destination.
At least I could sleep in until my normal 5 am wake-up time. My body was sore from the day and missing my perfect bed. But, my internal excitement about heading back to the ocean provided subtle stimulation.
Eleven hours of sleep listening to the sound of ocean waves crashing outside your window is the perfect way to blend into island life. After waking up, we went to the hotel gym for a quick workout. The run and weight-lifting routine seemed so easy. This day started off feeling just right.
I woke up sore after a night full of nightmares. I was behind on content creation, creating new manifestations, and my workout goals. I needed to reset and allow the ocean waves to carry me back to the dimension of self love
I woke up at my normal time before sunrise, excited both to go home and eat one more time at the Loren Beach Club. So I woke up, got dressed, packed, and went out on the balcony to do my affirmations until it was time to eat again.
Day trips filled with friendship, food, and activities
It happened that I was asked twice to go on a day trip during the first two weeks of my surrender experiment. As someone from southern California, it often surprises people that when I can go anywhere, I pick places colder than Atlanta. For whatever reason, I feel like the culture, community, and food are better in the northeast part of the United States. So I had grand daily adventures in NYC and BOS on two Saturdays during my experiment.
Today was a first for me. While I traveled for work on the first plane out and the last plane home for years for EnrichHER and before as a consultant, I had never traveled like this for fun on a Saturday. Today was the Day.
My restlessness resumed the night before my 4 am wake-up time. I couldn’t get my head around optimizing my life. Before I got into rim sleep, it was time to prepare for my Boston excursion.
“Do not diminish your light. Don’t pull back from people who need your light or the warmth of your presence with the knowledge that your truth brings. Be the Sun.’